i find that i regularly end up suspended in places between yes and no, black and white. this, perhaps, is a testament to how life is really just one big maybe.
case in point: wednesday came and went with an alleviation of my visa frustrations when i finally succeeded in applying. yet, psych, the date it will be ready remains a mystery. the women at the visa office sent me on one more run-around mission on tuesday, asking for another fax of a document they already had, then finally calling in the afternoon to tell me i could apply at my convenience. my convenience was actually 2 months ago, but the next day would have to do. so up to LA it was again. this time it was laughably simple. a 2-hour drive, a 5-minute wait, a couple more banally probing questions from the visa goddess, who, upon seeing me for the umpteenth time quipped, "my, you are persistent, aren't you?". and that was that. she said she wasn't sure it would be ready by tuesday, though would try, seeing as "these things usually take at least 2 weeks". as if i hadn't been trying this entire summer. i'm going to make a phone call to them first thing tomorrow morning to see if it will be ready by tuesday. i know there are other consulates that issue visas within 3 business days, so i know it would be possible for LA to do so if it so deemed.
yet despite all the uncertainty, in a strange way i wouldn't have it any other way. it's fly-by-the-seat of my pants excitement with no entrance fee and no strings attached. not that clear-cut answers are unwelcome, but sometimes life needs a little bit of spice in the mix.
here's to hoping that 'yes' loses its crisis identity in this case.
